Today is the 1 of the most Du Lan I have ever had...
Hv 2 du lan situations...DAMN!!!

First Wait For Shadow For like 3hr plus.
Waited for him nvm,but nv dance or chat wit me
The Whole time was damn sad...

Agreed to go out wit me evenin time.
Cant make it nvm,So wait for him lor
All the way frm 5pm till 2am...
Sms him all the way till 2am....
Hp bill chor le..Nvm...

9hrs of waitiness...
I dun mind waiting for Shadow...
But Cant shadow dance wit me or chat wit me 4awhile?

Jus awhile..even if for like 15mins i also happy...
All You can Do is say sorry and sorry in sms..
After saying sorry u still do something make me sad...
And i already sad enough for the past 4months...

After u noe who le har then nw is to you le..

I jus dun noe what to say...

Nature take its course...

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Now is the 2nd part which last for 1yr 2months.

Last time durin Aug like tis person called A.
A dun wan 2 be wit me.
But i tried my best to jio A to be A's Bf...
In the end failed..
9months of trying of jioing A...
In the end still failed...Nvm..

Then suddenly K came out,interested in K.
K also the same as A..Dun wan...
Do the same thing..Failed and failed...

Lasted for like 5months of jioin..
And as usual Failed..Nvm...

Nw durin the whole period,tis person called TP
TP keeps protecting K to be wit me..
NVM...
TP now adays makes my blood boils..
Feeling like Kickin TP's face till whole face cant recognize..
Lucky u famous lar hor..If u nt,i make sure it happen...

Then another K come along...
Then we got together bt break..
Damn sad then K to to the 2nd person..
Feel damn down..nvm...forget him..
Then both break,K go to 3rd person..
3rd person is W..
Du lan wan 2 wack W..
Bt dun wan,wack also no use..
Later K dun tok to me..

So giv W du lan face all the way..
The problem becomes big..
Bt nw solved le..

W says,dun worry..TP wud nt disturb u le..
TP dun disturb me like real sia..
Tat fucker..Gt knife cut yr hair then u noe..

Hot Hot Hot..Di Me jus nw at club..
U lucky hor gt ppl there high profile de..
If nt har,u cry mama papa...
Fucker..Di me 1 more time..
I curse u....

For 2days out wit Sarah...
Takin alot of pics and neo print haha..
Fun,takin all kind of kinky pics wit her..

She and me looks like a Couple..
But 1 thing different..
She and i cannot be together.
But can be as best friend.
Cus she is a L,i am B

So totally cannot haha lol..

Hm...Today did not sms bobo..
Wonder what he is doing..
Miss him so much...

Yest out wit Bobo...
Met him in the evening..
Had dinner @ Bugis Breko(my x wkin place)
Got free food and drink from there..
Jus for me and my BOBO...

Ate Bacon Mushroom pasta(my fav)
Mocha blended(wit cookie as dressing)

Bobo ate Turkey Chez Avo
Earl Grey tea

Total wud be ard $20++ almost to $30
Hmm Free dinner..lol..Thanks Winnie..

Shop ard bugis village,
Got quite alot of clothes i like..
Hmmm..Should i buy or nt..Better nt ba..

Ard 8+ go back le..
I go back camp,Bobo go back home..

I alight @ Eunos and found the bloody heaven bus ends at 7.30
I was #@$@#@##@$@$@#$@%$%$%^&^&*##@%

Took taxi go back..Reached there 9.30pm..
First person to reached,haha lol..

Then had PC tok all the way till 3am..
Yawns...

Tok abt wat is everyone is like and stuff..

Go sleep...

10/10/07
Woke up at7am when we supposed to be ready by 6.45am.
Hehe...
All sleep like a pig...

Pc peng...saw us all KO like pig..
Lol..Got stupid IPPT so sian lor

Purposely fail all haha..only Sit up pass lol..
After 2.4 km run..
Faster go back changed then go home..
Tired..

Reached home,found my atm card bent n broke..
ARgh..KNS..Bloody Heaven..

Heck,go to the nearest posb bank...
And turn out go Funan Centre..
KNS,wan 2 change card nia..
Vr fast de leh..Sucker..

Make me go to Funnan mall no way..
Other day then go..
Shopped @ Bugis again...
Saw 1 Cardigen clothe very nice for Bobo wear..
So i sms him if he wants,so bought it for him..

Ate KFC before shopin @ NTUC haha lol...
Bought 1 tub of ice cream for him..

Bobo even if you are goin to be fat bt to me u r nt..
Cus u r always my baobei..

But i dun noe if i ever can b yr baobei or nt...
From the way i see like...
Haiz..dun noe la...

All i can say is nature take it course...

I Love You BOBO!!!!

For the past few days..i been thinking..
Am i suitable for him..Wud i be wit him?

Wud I?
Am i fit enough for him?
Am i?

I totally love him...Even though love is jus a word...
But it is really a sentence...

Wat mus i do to have him...
I almost can have him...

But all i can do now is to keep loving him...

Right now all i feeling like doing is crying..
I wana feel alone...
I wana to be alone...

I WANT TO BE LEFT ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

WHO CAN HELP ME???
ONLY ME MYSELF AND I!!!

i must get over tis challenge...
DAMN!!!

But seriously,i do not know what to do next..
I am stuck...
I m like stuck inside a pithole...

Bobo,even though u noe i love you...
But there is one thing i dun noe........
It is....
Do you love me also?
Do you?
I am not sure if u do love me?

The song u sent to me i keep listening to it..
Makes me keep thinking of you...

At the same time,make me sad...
Cus of tis song,SHIT HAPPENS!!!

DAMN...!!!

Whenever i out wit you...
You makes me feel happy...
You so cute,funny bt i ugly and not funny...

The feeling you give me of being happy is unexplainable..
Is totally good feeling...

Bobo!!!!

U r my baby baby baby......

Kiss you,Hug you,Hold you and i wud not that moment ends...

Everything that i do now i dun noe wud change or nt..

Always is my fault..all my fault...ALWAYS!!!

Why must it be me..Why...

Why
Why
Why

WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

You look glam or nt glam u still looks good to me..
Totally miss you now...
Wonder what you doing now..
In school but doing what?
Hmm...

I cant speak or say more...i feeling sad now..
Cant say anything now...

Haven been bloggin since tat sadness abt national day thingy..
Damn sucks...

Well i Am OVER IT....

Hmmm..For the past few months got so many people Jio me..
Argh..Fuck It...

All either ...
my type but not to the age cgt...
not my type bt hv wat i wanted..
etc..

Got tis 24yr old guy,nt rich,average lookin,average bod..
And he is jobless,nt the kinda of person i want...
Cus all he wanted is my Holy Hole of mine...
Basket him..But i made him go do wat i wan him 2 do...
Bulid him his figure abit,get a job n good at kissin lor..
Wonder he do already or nt..
Well even if he gt the thing i wanted i wud nt b wit him..

He can get another person if he can lor...But no matter wat
He die die want but...Argh...

I am nth...Jus a normal guy wit 2eyes n 2 ears and 1 nose n 1 mouth.

Now i really found the person whom i really wanted to be wit.
But now i dun noe if tat person can b wit me or nt..

I wud b faithful to him...

Been missin tat person for like 1 month le...
Sms or call also dun reply nvm..
Only reply those tat person wan to reply...
Nvm...
Still love tat person alot...

Even though tat person called me FAILURE!!!!
But I wud still love him even though i felt dissapointed in myself..

But i am a real failure anyway...
Cant have what i want
Cant do things i want
Cant make things i want
Cant tis and cant tat..
Whenever i make it better for me it wud turn sucks..!!!

After all the things had happened to me...
Everyone says i either sucks or wateva kinds of stuff to me..
I heck care de....
But even tat person says i a Failure..

I felt damn sad,dissapointed and lousy abt myself...
Feel damn sad...Feelin like cryin the moment u turn right 2 yr hm..
Tears wana come out but i control not to come out..
Tell myself not to cry...

I a guy whom wud cry easily..But some how i changed..
Never cry easily le..Changed person...


For the past few days out wit tat person...
I felt happy to be wit tat person...

And who is that person?
Is called BOBO!!!

I so in loved wit Bobo..Bobo so cute...

When u said i a Failure the time,i totally had nth to say...
I think wat u said i a Failure and i really a failure...

Once a Failure always a Failure!!!

I dun wish to EMO!!!
I jus want to be happy with Bobo...

When u told me abt tat song by Avril...
I noe wat happened le..
I was totally sad,earth crushed....DAMN!!!!

I want to be wit you...But wud i b able to?

Now i dun noe what to do...

All i had 2 do is wait for nature to do it course lor...

Bobo...U b in my heart!!!
Love you Bobo...



Now to the next topic...
For the past few days alot of things happened..
First is the Burma monks...now is abt the outside world..
The outside world nobody wud noe wat is it..
Only my grp noes nia..
I noe abit or can say lousy abt it..
But...Can sense something always..sian..
Sense something always not a good thing de..
Dream also not a good thing...
What i can do?
My level is 0 now..Cant do anything but watch...

So many things had happened...
For the next few yrs alot of things going to change!!!
SERIOUS BUSINESS!!!
But it is not gona b a good thing..Tats for sure!!!
Dun wan 2 say anymore.. cus is not for alot of ppl 2 c de..



Next topic....
Been servin army for 11months le..
Still left 13months to go...
During the 13months i only hv 6.5months to go camp..
Been doing RP(relex but dangerous..) as my vocation...

Do 2days,off 2days..
Not bad huh...But but...Sometimes wud miss to go out wit frens..
Do duty also sian,need music but no music..
Bring own music to entertain myself...Sing,Dance or do both...
Muahaha..

But time flies very fast..
Last time BMTC 3months sufferin like siao...
But now can relex le...
Relex abit only...
Now LCP le...@ Paya Lebar Airbase..!!!

Its near my home but had 2 always take taxi cost almost $9 or $10
Depends on the timin and hw faster driver goes..
If take taxi witout midnite charge it wud b $7 only...

Do duty jus had 2 check pass and vehical lebal pass...
Tats all..Bored and leng but it so sucks..haha...
People wan to exchange wit me bt if change they wud regret..

Well..Rp then RP lor..wat 2 do...
Bo Bian...

Wait for ORD lor 8dec08...



Next topic...
Resident Evil 3 is a good show..Damn nice...Lol..
But wasted nt as good as part 1 n part 2...
Lot of fighting,part 3 use weapons de..
Not so real..Real fight is the best haha..
But overall ok la..4 out of 5stars...



Next topic...
Wat should i want to say next leh..
Hmmm.I wana keep tis post vrvr long de wor..

Now thinking of bobo again...
Wonder what he is doing now...
As usual doing homework...
Your exam you wud pass...
Tat all i can say abt yr result..
Dun tell u hw i noe bt u pass can le...

The song which u intro to me...

Avril Lavigne - Hot

You're so good to me, baby, baby

I wanna lock you up in my closet, where no one's around
I wanna put your hand in my pocket, because you're allowed
I wanna drive you into the corner, and kiss you without a sound
I wanna stay this way forever, I'll say it loud
Now you're in and can't get out

You make me so hot
Make me wanna drop
You're so ridiculous
I can barely stop
I can hardly breathe
You make me wanna scream
You're so fabulous
You're so good to me, baby, baby
You're so good to me, baby, baby

I can make you feel all better, just take it in
And I can show you all the places, you've never been
And I can make you say everything, that you never said
And I will let you do anything, again and again
Now you're in and can't get out

You make me so hot
Make me wanna drop
You're so ridiculous
I can barely stop
I can hardly breathe
You make me wanna scream
You're so fabulous
You're so good to me, baby, baby
You're so good to me, baby, baby

Kiss me gently
Always I know
Hold me, love me
Don't ever go, oh oh oh...
Yeah!

You make me so hot
Make me wanna drop
You're so ridiculous
I can barely stop
I can hardly breathe
You make me wanna scream
You're so fabulous
You're so good to me

You make me so hot
Make me wanna drop
You're so ridiculous
I can barely stop
I can hardly breathe
You make me wanna scream
You're so fabulous
You're so good to me, baby, baby
You're so good to me, baby, baby

You're so good

Songs tat r so nice to listen...
Natasha Bedingfield - Soulmate

Incompatible, it don't matter though
'cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
You're not easy to find

Is it possible Mr. Loveable
Is already in my life?
Right in front of me
Or maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit
There's enough for everyone
But I'm still waiting in line

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

If there's a soulmate for everyone

Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone



Jason Mraz - I'm Yours

Well, you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but your so hot that i melted
I fell right through the cracks, and i'm tryin to get back
before the cool done run out i'll be givin it my best test
and nothin's gonna stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait i'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love
listen to the music at the moment maybe sing with me
Ah, la peaceful melody
It's your god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved Loved

So, i won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait i'm sure
there's no need to complicate our time is short
this is our fate, i'm yours

*scat*

I've been spendin' way too long checkin' my tongue in the mirror
and bendin' over backwards just to try to see it clearer
my breath fogged up the glass
and so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm a sayin'is there ain't no better reason
to rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
it's what we aim to do
our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
it cannot wait, i'm sure
(there's no need to complicate
our time is short
it cannot wait, i'm yours 2x

no please don't complicate, our time is short
this is our fate, im yours.
no please don't hesitate no more, no more
it cannot wait, the sky is yours!)

well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
ah, la one big family
it's your god forsaken right to be loved, loved, loved, loved
open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
ah, la happy family
it's our god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved
listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
ah, la peaceful melodies


it's you god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved...
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Now is 1.32am le...Cant even sleep...
Bobo got sch tomorrow..Hmmm...
Love him to much le...

I dun wan 2 b like in the past.Get over someone after 3yrs..
Its a torturin process...DAMN!!!