2day so happy.....can go home earlier then usual...
Nt like last week....release at 5pm....
Come hm wanna sleep sia....
Then tok 2 raymond till i reach hm....
Still toking to him when doin my "business"
Then wan 2 to put it to loudspeaker n make the phone stand
Bt woosh.....down down down to the pail of water....
Damn it sia.....
Faster pick up the phone open everything then clean it with water
Then heng heng can still use it sia...
If nt back 2 my 6610i.....
Again....
Dame suay...........
So suay................

Yesterday played pool for 10 hrs...$61.80
2day play pool again for 5 hrs...$42
So ex sia.....
Some more yesterday is 3 person play
$45.70 for first game for 5 hrs....
3 of us paid.......
$16.20 for second game for few hrs...
bt 2 person pay.....during the second game
Which is me n Raymond
Even though 3 of us played...
bt today is only Raymond and me play n paid...
$42 like mad....Cost like bomb sia
Then today went to meet Raymond...at his hus
Went to his father Hp shop to get DUK5
From the shop n gt it as a loan.....
no need 2 pay for it...
Then went to play pool...at Pool Junction
Which is at IOI Plaza...beside the NTUC....
Then walked home together again....
Then i followed him hm as usual....
Then walked hm alone...
And being surrounded by all the indians sia...
Turn here n there r indians no chinese at all
Nt a single person is chinese all r just indian..
Haiz........
Faster walk hm sia....

KELVIN THIS IS FOR YOU.....
BRITNEY SPEARS NEW SONG
TITTLE "DO SOMETHIN"
And here is the lyrics for u

"Do Somethin'"

[Intro]
Do you feel this
I know you feel this
Are You ready?
I dont think so

[Part 1]
Somebody give me my truck
So I can ride on the clouds
So I can turn up the bass like...

Somebody pass my guitar
So I can look like a star
And spend this cash like...

Whatchu gonna do when the croud goes Ayo?
Why you standin' on the wall?
Music startin' everywhere
So why dont you just move along?

[Chorus]
I see you lookin at me
Like I'm some kind of freak
Get up out of your seat
Why dont you do somethin'?
I see you lookin' at me
Like I got what you need
Get up out of your seat,
Why dont you do somethin'?

[Part 2]
Now you all in my grill
Cause I say what I feel
Only rocks on what's real
Baby bump bump
But I can't do that with you
Only here with my crew
I can roll if you can
Dont be a punk punk

Whatchu gonna do when the croud goes Ayo?
Why you standin' on the wall?
Music startin' everywhere
So why dont you just move along?

[Chorus x2]

Na nananananana
Uh!
Na nananananananana

[Bridge]
I see you lookin' over here
Cant you tell I'm havin' fun
If you care like I know
You would stop
starrin' at us
And get your own space
And do somethin'

[chorus x2]

Fuck!
Do Somethin'
Ow!
Why dont you do somethin'?

29/1/05
It is my big bro's birthday
Bt i dun give a dame abt it
All i done was send a happy birthday sms 2 him..
Vr patatic rite...
Trying to save $$$ bt cant...
Woke up at 10.30am
Watch Pokemon...Hahah lol
Tot i m still a kid...
Everyone hv a kid in their charactor
Went online at 11am....
Tok to Raymond....in msn....
Went out to meet him....
Went to his hus then go off together...
Took Taxi to Cine to find Joseph...
Went to play Pool from 2pm till like 7.30pm
And the cost of the pool game kills 3 of us...
$45.70 in 5 hrs....
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Tats is a bomb bt is quite cheap actually...
Hahahah lol.....
Each of us paid $15
After that went to Long John
2 eat for something 2 eat...
Then went back to play Pool again...
Tis time from 8pm till 10.30pm
Play till siao....
Saw my god sis crystal...n her stead n a fren lynn
As well as my sec frens n sherie....
Joseph went hm first...left only Ray n me...
Then we went to cheers outside to walk hm...
Saw my Buddy....LEISHER....DAME SUPER HAPPY
I am Dame Dame Happy....able to see him....
So happy hahaah
Saw Stephanie,Lional,Bennard,Nelson....
Tok together for a while....
Then Ray n i walked hm from cine to our hus...
Which is at Little India area...
We walked by HMV behind to Newton Circus....
Then to KK Hospital b4 reaching our hus...
We tok like no one business.....
Tok and tok n tok...all the way hm
Finally reached hm @ 12midnite feeling tired....
Bt nw cant sleep again dame.....
Nw is 2.10am liao leh....
Writing my blog nw.....
So sian....
Had 2 wait for my bro document to send finished
Then i can log out of his msn n sign in mine...
Going to finish soon....
Yeah....can sign in,in a few mins time...
N finally can sign in my msn liao
Wonder who is online...
Jacilyn is online hahah lol
Nw chatting with her...
And i no need to buy a cable for 6610i liao...
Raymond's father lend me the cable 2molo 2 use
Hahahah so happy....
Inside my phone hv alot of pics....
Hving 2 phone nw...
6610i and 6230
Rich rite bt i nt

I am going to be strightforward person...
If i say no means no
If i say yes means yes
If i say anything which could hurt ppl
I am sorry
i am going to be strightforward
I would not let any one choose my path
Neither choose where to go
Where i wan to go is none of yur business
Where i wan to eat is none of yur business
Wat i wan to drink/eat is none of yur business
Must you all control me abt wat i wanna to do
Does it concern abt you...
No rite.....
U think that i am a baby which need instruction
No rite
Dun we hav our rites to say what we want to say
Do i need instruction on where to go or do...
No rite....
Bt must u tell me wat to do or where 2 go..
Must you do that to me...
Even though i give in to u all where to go..
Bt when i speak up...u say boring....
Then wat for i speak up if i dun wan to go...
Then wat for m i here beside u all...
Where ever i go,u say is boring..
Bt where ever u go is nt boring is it...
And did i complain a bit nt a single bit..
At all u noe that.....
Bugger all of u....

Nw is 3.30am
Still haven slept
B4 this post
The time i made was at 2am
Sian........
Bored sia......
No 1 2 tok 2.....
DO i hv FRENZ??
SEEMS to me NO..
I DUN hv FRENS!!
I M Nthing
BT
A LONER
N
A LOSER
N
A SUCKER 4EVA
Haiz.....................
Feeling down......
VRVRVRVRVR DOWN!!!!!
DOWN DOWN DOWN!!!!!!!
nw is 3.35am

Yesterday(28/01/05)
Went for the student council meeting at 12.30pm
Finished lesson today at 11am n slack around sch
Till 12.30pm.....Vr sian......
After sch suppose 2 to Leisher bt didn't meet....
Nvm.......Went to Blastier the interchange
Took bus 124 to Orchard return the clothes back
For my flyer job.....Then the $$$ nt there.....
Had 2 go all the way to the Sg Shoppin Centre....
Went to Tangs find Jacilyn to chat with her...
Agree to eat dinner with her
Then i went off to Sg Shopping Centre.....
2 get my pay......
Went to PS's 7-11 to pay my hp bill...
the rest put in my bank account...
Went back 2 Tangs 2 meet jacilyn...
Bt she dun noe when where.....
Then i
Called her n tat 'idiot' pick up the phone....
Saying tat is wrong number.....
Why are you trying to make fun of me?
You think it's funny? What the fuck you think it's doing to me?
Idiot gurl.....Arsehole.....
Everytime call would pick up the phone....
Arsehole...
If anyone dun noe who is it?
It is good 4 u not to know who.....
Fucking bitch....
Anyway continue the story.....
Then went to eat dinner alone....feeling bored....
Then went to Cine
2 meet my god sis and chatted till 6pm...
Went home after that
And slept from 7pm till 12.30am....
Yawn.....slept enough liao...cant sleep liao haiz....
2molo no more work....n i m jobless.....so sad.....
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Do i have frenzs?????Can anyone tell me.....
Do i hv frenz.....I m vr lonely.....
I hv no frenz.... at all....
Y must this happen to me....
Y i dun hv frenz.....
Y Y Y Y Y Y
Am i a bored person tat i dun hv fren......
Am i?????
Can tell me am i a boring peron.....
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When i m quiet,ppl ask me to talk
When i m talkative,ppl ask me to quiet....
So what do u all treat me as...
A person 2 be ordered around
2 be talkative or quiet at times....
Is it.....
I prefer to be quiet or
Being talkative is none of yur business
Am i yurs....no rite....
Y must u control me...Arseholes....
When i talk alot,u would find me irritating
When i quiet,u would feel bored...
When i talk or quiet is none of yur business..
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These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

Tried to kill the pain
But only brought more
I lay dying
And i'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal
I'm dying, praying, bleeding and screaming
Am i too lost to be saved
Am i too lost?

My God my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My God my tourniquet
Return to me salvation

Do you remember me
Lost for so long
Will you be on the other side
Or will you forget me
I'm dying, praying, bleeding and screaming
Am i too lost to be saved
Am i too lost?

My God my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My God my tourniquet
Return to me salvation

I want to die!!!

My God my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My God my tourniquet
Return to me salvation

My wounds cry for the grave
My soul cries for deliverance
Will i be denied Christ
Tourniquet
My suicide

"Behind These Hazel Eyes"

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

"Missing"

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll look up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing?"

You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?

[Chorus:]
Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
I breathe deep and cry out,
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"

Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
I'll wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...

Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

Came back from sch after the webpage design lesson..
It was abt 3.45pm...
I was playing with my cousin then made alot of noise..
My bro gt angry.....
Dame idiot.......
Moron.......
U also gt make alot of noise when playing with her...
Then i play with her cannot bt u can...
Idiot...Freak of hell....
I hate u the most.....
Than anyone else.....
I hate u.......
So what u r my first bro....
First bro doesn't means that u can controll me
Arsehole....
Idiot....
Hate u sia.....
Bloody arsehole....
Dame U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Kenna woke up so dame early...
If nt for Raymond.....
Woke me up at 7.45am....
I could sleep longer till 8am...
Chatted with him till 7.55am...
Then went to bath.....
Changed to PE Attire and go 2 sch...
During the PE lesson.....
We took the Sit Up
The most marks is 5 and had 2 do 43 times
I did only 41 in 1 min....
Hazi.... wasted short of 2 more.....
After that went to the rest....till 10am...
Went to the classroom and do the Stupid PIE
Wasting our time only haiz.............
After that we had abt 1hr 30 mins of rest
Till 1pm....
Hahahahah........
Walked around the whole sch.....
Saw Kelvin going to the back side gate...
Bt didn't call him.....
I was at the third floor....
...Kelvin,r u in a rush or something???....
Then went to second floor met new frens...
They were the 1 who asked me to join the
Interact Club....
Then went to third level wait for teacher...
Then have some bunch of FUCKERS!!!!!!
On the 4th floor calling me.....
I act dao at them dun reply back....
And they could even spit at me ....
Bloody fucker....Luckily didn't kenna me...
If nt i would shout at them.....
KNNBCCB,FUCK OFF,ARSEHOLE......
I pissed them off by listening to my hp
Hahahah lol........
Kept on calling me also no use.....
The music too loud already and hear both side...
Cant hear anything.....
All the way till the teacher comes.......
What a bunch of FUCKERS......
Next week would c them again at the same place...
Hazi...........waste my time sia.............
Totally waste my time to tok 2 them....
Dame bastards...............
SO what you are in the second year...
Does it means u could disturb me....
DO u think i could give a dame abt u all....
Arsehole.....
What a SOB are u all.....
Yur Mothers are all Bitches and MaDrea Puta...
Yur Fathers are all Bastards and PaDrea Puta...
Puta means prositute.....
PaDrea means Father
MaDrea means Mother...
Padrea Puta means Father is a prositute
MaDrea Puta means Mother is a prositute
What a bad spanish words is it
Hahahahah lol.......
Nw in the com room and doing my blog...
Feeling cold again...Air con facing me....
My hands going to be frozen soon....
Dame cold......

Yesterday....(25/1/04)
After sch went to play pool in sch uni..
At Beach Rd......
After that went to find my fren at Cine
He asked me to accompany him for the day...
Then both of us went to play pool....
Playing Pool again.......
Hazi..............
Acompany him to play pool hahah lol....
We played for 1 hr.....
Then we went to walk around......
Then accompany him to go and eat...
While i didn't eat only him eat only....
After that i accompany to send him home...
By that time is 8pm......
Took the bus 171.....
The trip was dame super long sia.....
Go to Bukit Timah then to Upper Bt Timah
B4 going to his house at Bt Panjang.....
Along the way there....
Play my hp to hear music without the ear peice...
Play and play very loud.....Giving all the seats...
To anyone and i didn't sit at all during the trip
Standing all the way.....
Saw alot of pretty girls...
And let them sit hahaha lol....
Waht a gentlelman m I
And the trip is 1 hr++ long.....
Haiz.................
Went back taking bus 960 and freezing like shit...
Had to wear my jacket all the way hm...
The air con is dame super cold
That i cant stand the coldness sia.............
By the time i reach hm it was already 10.30pm...
Didn't use the com yesterday....Dame tired....
Almost slept
Ivan called me and chat while i eat my dinner...
Till 11pm
Then i went to sleep and get ready for 2molo lesson...

I am sorry for the things i had done...
I knew that i am been forgiven
But
I cant forgive myself....
I am sorry....
Totally sorry...
I am totally sorry....
I cant forgive myself...
...For those who don't know
...Don't bother to ask....
Haiz......................................
Half way healing in my heart.....
Half way more to go before i am back
To the crazy guy of me.....
Haiz....................................
Even though it is over....
But i still thinking of it...
Bt trying not to think.....
Make myself sad only.....
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The show about Electra......

The show was about she was dead actually
But she was risen from the dead by a master
And she was taught to fight with more skills...
Her skills is getting better and better...
Then she was force to be kicked out of the group

She was a great killer whom can kill 20 people
In 15 mins....
She left 1 mission
Which was to kill a girl(Abby) and a guy
Both of them are daughter and father....
Electra made friends with them unknownly that
She had to kill them.....
Electra relectant to kill them
She reject the proposal.....

Then another group of killers tried to kill them...
Bt Electra killed them....
The big boss of the killers hired 4 ppl to kill them..

1 female n the rest all male

The female able to make living things die before 1 mins
The 1st male is as hard as stone...
The 2nd male is full of tatoo which the tatoo come alive..
The third male is a very slim person which i 4gt the skill....

The stone guy died when electra was on the tree
And the tree came on the stone guy

Then Abby was holding a secrect weapon
Which looks like a chain necklace to a sharp chain.
The weapon looks very innocent bt is a secrect weapon..

Abby fought with the third killer for a few seconds..
Then her father threw a knife to the killer and
The killer dissapear into thin air......

The female ran to her n kiss her on the lips
Which had a power to make things die within sec.

Then electra died bt was once again saved by the master.
Abby was trained by the master.....

In the end

Abby rescued Electra in Electra hus when she was small.
Abby was once again died by the female with death touch

The big boss son fought with Electra and she was losing...
And she won the fight.

And she uses a skill which can see the future
And threw her knife at the direction n the female died

Abby was going to die......
Electra uses the same skill as her master rescue her
When she died....
Electra concentrate and Abby was risin from the dead...

And it is the end of the story...

Woke up at 7.15am....
Still so early....shaz....
Should wake up at 7.30am liao...
Bath....even the water is hot
Bt the air is dame super cold...
Had to shiver all the way...
While bathing....
Dame super cold....
Nw hv flu liao...
Dame it sia...
Then leave my hus wearing a jacket..
Took my own sweet time to walk...
And still reach there so early...
7.50am...
I like Yawn....
Wanna sleep liao...
Then lesson starts....
Then the bloody teacher talk n talk..
Like no 1 business..Some more cant hear..
Wat he is saying sia....
Then just say understand understand
Bt actually is dun understand sia....
The whole class asking each other how har..
Ask till 4.15pm.....
Then 4.15pm finished clean up...
And he drag all the way till 4.45pm
We like faster leh wan 2 go hm sleep 1 leh
Vr tired 1 leh monday blues leh......
Then i faster walk as fast as i can
Tot can c Kelvin at the Bus Stop....
Bt he is nt there.....
Nvm....
Went to my fren's shop near my hus 2 buy drink
Then walk hm slowly...
Dame Dame super Shaz......
I wan 2 lie down sia.....
Using a hospital bed then
Using a long stick to push around
2 reach hm....
Dame tired sia....
I dun wan 2 sleep in front of the com again....
Cant tok 2 Kelvin and Leisher or Jacilyn later...
Wah kao......
Must make myself awake....
Yawn.....
Ah....Chu.......(20 times liao)
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Thinking of my Sec 4 days........
Miss the days alot.....
Alot of fun inside.....
Leisher,Raymond,Joseph......
Helena,Elvi,Stephanie......
Misses you all.....
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"A Mind Of Its Own"

Stop, slow down, take a deep breath (ooh yeah)
Stop, slow down, take a deep breath (na na na na na)
Ooh, oh

I look at you and I know you're trouble
I should run just fast as I can
One smile, game over
Here in front of you I stand
I know you're only gonna burst my bubble
Trouble is my heart don't care
It's ignoring all the danger signs
Stop, Slow down, take a deep breath, beware

I'm not willing to be so fearless, careless, just yet
Once bitten, twice shy, is what you get

My hearts got a mind of it's own
Won't listen to a word I say
Doesn't it know that I get hurt too
When it acts that way
Cos When it breaks I break
I don't know how much more of this I can take
Doesn't it know that I get hurt too
When it acts that way

Too many times I've witnessed
My heart make a fool of itself
So sure it's gonna turn out one way
Always turns out being somethin' else

My hearts got a real malfunction
Always flippin' into over ride
When I tell it to be sensible
It over rules my cynical mind

I'm not willing to be so open, transparent, no not yet
Once bitten twice shy, is what you get
(But here in front of you, there's nothin I can do)

My hearts got a mind of it's own
Won't listen to a word I say
Doesn't it know that I get hurt too
When it acts that way
Cos When it breaks I break
I don't know how much more of this I can take
Doesn't it know that I get hurt too
When it acts that way

My hearts got a mind of it's own
Won't listen to a word I say (word I say)
Doesn't it know that I get hurt too (hurt too)
When it acts that way
Cos When it breaks I break
I don't know how much more of this I can take
(I don't know how much more of this I can take)
Doesn't it know that I get hurt too
When it acts that way

Stop, slow down, take a deep breath
Think about what I'm doin'
Think about once bitten, twice shy
Stop, slow down, take a second
Before you rush right in
It's gonna be my tears you cry

My hearts got a mind of it's own (of it's own)
Won't listen to a word I say
Doesn't it know that I get hurt too
When it acts that way (when it acts that way)
Cos When it breaks I break (I break)
I don't know how much more of this I can take
(More of this I can take)
Doesn't it know that I get hurt too (get hurt too)
When it acts that way (when it acts that way)

My hearts got a mind of it's own (mind of it's own)
Won't listen to a word I say
Doesn't it know that I get hurt too
(Doesn't it know that I get hurt too)
When it acts that way (when it acts that way)
Cos when it breaks I break (Cos when it breaks I break)
I don't know how much more of this I can take
(More of this I can take)
Doesn't it know that I get hurt too
When it acts that way

My hearts got a mind of it's own
My hearts got a mind of it's own
Stop, slow down, take a deep breath
[Fade]

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

"Graduation (Friends Forever)"

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

[1] - As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

[Repeat 1]

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

[Repeat 1 (3x)]

I cant wait for 9th Feb....
It is New Year Day.....
Time to get Ang Bao...
Play Black Jack...
Earn $$$$$
I broke nw....
I also cant wait to c my cousin
Espically is PEI LING!!!!!
She is my Fav cousin....
Long time didn't c her liao...
Miss her alot.....
alway share stuff together...
Hahahah lol.....
U must bring yur red Bag hor...
U noe wat i meant the red bag
Hahah miss her so much,.....
Cant wait 4 the day to come...
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Then on the week 11
There is no sch for me....the whole week
No school......
So happy.......
No school......
Also cant wait for the day to come.....
The whole week of feeling sian at hm.....
What to do!!!!!!!
4 1 whole week at home feeling sian....

Chao
Sign Brandon

Haiz........
School Time table can kill me.
Monday = 5pm can be 4.15pm or 4.30pm
Tuesday = 3.30pm
Wednesday = 3.30pm
Thusday = 5pm can be 4.15pm or 4.30pm
Friday 12pm

Wah kao all so long and late...
My class is the only class...
Which is the end late and the most ppl...

Other classes only hv 1 day of 5pm...
Bt my class have 2 days of 5pm...
SO unfair......

Hate my timetable...
Bt is very slack time table....

SInce i live so near y should i complain...
HAHAH lol
Haiz..........
All my frenz end earlier than me.......
And they can enjoy to rest early or go out early..
Except my class......
Enjoy air con inside only haha lol......

chao....
Sign off
Brandon,,,

Nw adjustin my bloger size
Change and change and change
Till like vr long leh...
Change here and there
Short of 1 degree or more by alot of degree
And finally done finished
Luckily ......
Nw feeling bored n sian......
No 1 online ........
They are nt online......
Haiz.............
So bored.....

Y must the stupid com do this to me.....
I feeling vr sian already bt y must u...
sign me out of Msn.....
It is the only way for me to kill time...
But had 2 kick me out...Dame u...
Stupid come.....
Msn cant go in....
Had 2 wait like few hrs later then can go in
Dame u.....
Y must i wait......
I half way talking to my frens....
Kelvin,Agnes,Leisher......
Wah kao..........
dun do this to me leh....
I vr sian already......
Then kick me out of the msn...
Dame u stupid com......
Restart abt 10 times liao....
Still cant sign in
Dame u la
Stupid conncection....
Always must kenna me 1
y nt my bros kenna this thing...
YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
Meeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.....
I hate it......
Dame stupid com....
Chatting with Kelvin then gone....
YYYYYYYYYYYYYY
I still wan to tok to him 1....
bt y do to me today...
Y nt other days.....
Of kenna log out by itself
Dame u.....

21/1/05,Feelin bored keep on sleeping till 5pm
Then use the com till nite
After that went to watch Movie
"Electra" with Karhock n Ivan
@ Cine.The movie starts at 4.25am(22/1/05)
Nw is (22/1/05)
Ivan and Karhock and me went to Shaw House
The Mac to eat cus we felt hungry
The show is vr good to watch
Deserve 4 stars......
The girl in the show is average also
Bt her weapon is vr dangerous......
Electra the skills is dame super good
After the show,Ivan went hm
Left only karhock and me sleeping at Level 6
The long sofa for 2 hrs...
Then we went home.
I reached hm at 8.25am
I lie down on the sofa n slept till 10.30am
I quickly bath changed and rush out of my hus...
Cus i had 2 work at 11am
Giving out flyers.......
After giving out the flyers....
I went to cine again to play pool with
Raymond,Kai Lee,Alan,Zi Xuan and Zhen Hui
During the game.....
There were a group of fuckers of japanese guys
Kept on disturbing my way from hitting the ball
Everytime miss the ball 1
That dame fuckers......
Stupid Puta Japanese guys.....
I gave them a xia lan look to them.......
During the whole duration at cine for 2 to 3 hrs...
I felt like wacking them till them bleed......
After that Raymond and i walked home together......
Nw feeling dame shaz and tired and sleepy....
Bt i cant sleep.....
Gonna have insomia soon......
Dame....
I had 2 sleep bt cant.....
What to do....

This song is sang by evanscence

"Thoughtless"

[Originally by Korn]

All of my hate cannot be bound
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground I will see you screaming

Thumbing through the pages of my fantasies
Pushing all the mercy down, down, down
I wanna see you try to take a swing at me
Come on, gonna put you on the ground, ground, ground

Why are you trying to make fun of me?
You think it's funny? What the fuck you think it's doing to me?
You take your turn lashing out at me
I want you crying when you're bloody down in front of me

All of my hate cannot be bound
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
I will see you screaming

Thumbing through the pages of my fantasies
I'm above you, smiling at you, drown, drown, drown
I wanna kill and rape you the way you raped me
And I'll pull the trigger And you're down, down, down

Why are you trying to make fun of me?
You think it's funny? What the fuck you think it's doing to me?
You take your turn lashing out at me
I want you crying when you're bloody down in front of me

All of my hate cannot be bound
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground I will see you screaming

All my friends are gone,
they died (gonna take you down)
They all screamed, and cried (gonna take you down)
Never gonna forget, never forget, how we hate the world [x4]
(Gonna take you down)

All of my hate cannot be bound
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
and Beat me to the ground I will see you screaming

All of my hate cannot be bound
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground I will see you screaming

It doesn't matter liao....
As long as you happy liao can liao....
U r still my fren......
I miss the days.....in CK Tang
had alot of fun in there.....
With Adnan and Leisher,Edmund,Denise,Fenson,Julian
Playing Tai Ti also....after work
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Nw trying to concentrate on my course
Pass all my modules
Dun care what other ppl think abt me
Think that i am Bi,Gay
Fuck u all dame bastards!!!!!
Fuck the whole dame bloody hell of u all
Fuck
Fuck
Fuck
Dame bloody heck what u all think...
I am 100% stright.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Whateva u think of me would i give a dame abt it...
No way would i think abt it....
If i think of it could i able to solve it???
No way in hell would i listen to all these kinds of craps!!!

I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is
________________________________________

I hate ppl taking me for granted
Thinking that i just give ways to them
They could get things they wanted from me
Well there is no FUCKING IN HELL
U could get what u wanted from me....
No Way In Hell!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Dame bloody bastards and bitches....
Think i am easily being bullied is it...
HAHA think again ASSHOLES!!!
I Gave ways so that there would be no
Fights between both of us
Asshole!!!!!!
If u think i am toking abt u...While it is not
It is some1 else whom u dun noe....
They r from my class

I finally able to unlease whateva shit of stuff
I wanna say.......

I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

Thats all i wanna to say Dame U ALL
2bad u bitches and bastards dun have
Blog....If u have tell me k
Just link me up n read this God dame
Stuff for u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, steppin' into the club
Somebody wanna tell DJ to turn it up
I feel the energy all around
And my body can't stop moving to the sound

But I can tell that you're watching me
And you're probably gonna write what you didn't see
Well I just need a little space to breathe
Can you please respect my privacy

Why can't you just let me
Do the things I wanna do
I just wanna be me
I don't understand why
Would you wanna bring me down
I'm only having fun
I'm going live my life (not the way you want me to)

I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

Here we are back up in the club
People taking pictures
Don't you think they get enough
I just wanna be all over the floor
And throw my hands up in the air to the beat like (What?)

I've gotta say respectfully
I would like it if you take the cameras off of me
'Cause I just want a little room to breathe
Can you please respect my privacy

Why can't you just let me
Do the things I wanna do
I just wanna be me
I don't understand why
Would you wanna bring me down
I'm only having fun
I wanna live my life
Like I wanna do

I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

I just need to free my mind (my mind)
Just wanna dance and have a good time (good time)

I'm tired of rumors (rumors)
Followed (followed, followed, followed, followed, followed)

What they (follow) me
Why can't they (they they they-they-they) let me live

Take this for just what it is

I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

Right now i am changed.....
I do not have 3 hubbies and 2 wifes liao.
I only have 1 hubby who is Leisher.
Bt the hubby thing is buddy kind...
In my school there are hubby
wife
mother
father
sister
brother
grandmother
grandfather
great grandmother
great grand father
The whole accestor also have.
Alot of family trees in my school.

Had a new fren called Ivan.
He is Leisher's classmate.
ivan became my little brother.
I become his kor kor.
Everyday kept on talking on the phone.
We kept on talking and talking till 2am also have.
If anything wrong to Leisher.
Ivan would call me and ask me what happened to him.
Then we would find ways to make Leisher happy
Cheer him up.

Yesterday(15/1/05)
Work finished at 4++pm
Went to Far East Plaza to walk around.
With Xiao Ying,Serene,Wei Yang.
At about 5++pm all went home.
I walked to Tangs to find Jacilyn bt cant find her.
Then i walked all the way to Plaza Singapura.
Went to a Bikini Shop which my fren working there.
We talked and talked like no one business.
Then Black Bird(Joseph)called me to go to HMV.
I reached there in 10 mins.
Then called him that i reached liao.
He said he at cineleisure Level 8 playing pool.
I went there,he wasn't there.
I called him and he said that no need to meet him liao.
Because it was about 7++pm going to be 8pm.
And i had to rush to Airport
To see my teacher off for her studies.
When i reached there,she left already.
If not for Joseph, i would be able to send her off.
I walked around the airport.
Then went home.
When reached to Tanan Merah MRT
I Saw Xiao Bai from my Secondary School.
We talked and talked in the train all the way to Dhoby Ghaut.
He working in Airport waiting for O results.
He said that there are two jobs empty to work in airport nw.
1hr $5.50 to $6
The two jobs were checking the laggugages and the passport.
His job was to guide tourist to the exit and could earn tips.
And so fast reached to Dhoby Ghaut.
Reached home and knock out.
Have work at 3pm later at Scotts Shopping Centre.

2day(14/1/05)
Accompany my new fren called abel to the MRT(Boon Keng)
I cant believe that he doesn't noe
That NEL train have no driver
WHAT A JOKE!!!!!HAHAHAHA
He acted like a baby in the train...
Acting like he is a pilot in the train....
I like doesn't know him at all sia.....
Embarrased by him sia........
Then went back to Outram sec...
Went canteen gt free food again haha lol...
Tok to Mrs Hodge,Mr Ho Yew Kiat,Mr David Tan,Mrs Heng
Then Mr Ho asked me a very strange Q
He asked me do i wanna tutor some one....
i replied back who is the person i going to tutor...
He said tutor his K1 Son.....i was like shocked.......
His K1 son was so cute and would be handsome....
Later if teach him would changed to playing sia.....
I asked what to teach him...
He said teach him how to write,letters,simple sum of maths..
He said he would called me again.....
Hope i could teach bt only Sat and Sun only......
Then he had 2 go teach other classes liao....
Went to the library to meet Yee leng,Agnes,Hui Shan,ect....
Went off to the canteen cus they wanna eat for lunch....
Then tok to Myn Yue,Channel in the canteen....
Then went to Chinatown to walk about.....
Bought a new hp cover for myself...Nokia 6230(Pink)
Then walked about till 4++pm
Went home with Hui Shan cus she lived near my hus...
Took the NEL back home....
Onces reached home changed cover to pink liao..
Then went to sleep at 5pm till 9pm....
Sleep like a pig sia......
And nw wanna to shit sia wah kao of all time.....
DAME IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Must TA HAN!!!!!!!!!!!!

After sch on Wed(12/1/04)
Went back to Secondary Sch.....
Saw Mr Krishnan,Ms Seow,Ms Wong,Mr Teng,Mr Lee.
Ate with them at the canteen..
Gt free food from Black Bird's mother stall in the canteen....
Everyone asked which ITE Campus i went to and which course.
I said that i went to Blastier ITE doing Aerospace.
Everyone replyed that it is a very good Course to take.
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There were only 5 classes in Sec 1 so sad..thing.....
The rest are still the same still as playful as ever...

MISS GOING BACK THERE AND STUDY WITH 4/2
HOW I WISH COULD GO BACK TIME
AND BE WITH THEM STUDYING.................................
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Then went off to Orchard to find Raymond to play Pool.
I wore a jacket because i still wearing the ITE Uniform.
Played till 4++pm then walked home together......
Went by the way to Far East Plaza.....
Then to Newton Hawker Centre..........
Then to a shortcut to KG Java Rd........
Then walked to Jaslyn's hus downstair.....
Finally to Iittle India......
Bought a drink then followed him back home....
Before going back home and sleep..........
So tired........

For Sec 4/2.....THIS SONG IS 4 EVERYONE IN THAT CLASS

The circle of the moon
The rising of the sun
We'll be together soon
Our story's just begun
Time will bring us near
I'll never be so far
Oh baby don't you fear
I'll always be right where you are

You can dry my tears
But you can't stop the pain inside
I'm trying to hide
As I hold you near
I know I have to pull away
You know that I can't stay
All of my life
No one has touched me the way that you do
Wherever I go
I know that the road will lead back to you

[Chorus]
So don't say goodbye
Don't turn away
It doesn't have to end today
Don't say goodbye
Cause I will love you till the end of time

Don't say goodbye

Even though We'll be apart
We'll see the same stars
Just close your eyes
And I'll be where you are
Don't say goodbye
Cuz if you say that word my heart won't survive

Don't say goodbye

Can you feel my desire?
The way that my body's aching
With your every breath
I try to memorize
Every move you're making
So I'll never forget
The way that you feel
Whenever your heart is beating with mine
Wherever I go
I'll keep my memories of you inside

[Chorus]

Don't say goodbye

Even though We'll be apart
We'll see the same stars
Just close your eyes
And I'll be where you are
Don't say goodbye
Cause if you say that word my heart won't survive

Don't say goodbye

The circle of the moon
The rising of the sun
We'll be together soon
Our story's just begun
Time will bring us near
I'll never be so far
Oh, baby, don't you fear
I'll always be right where you are

No me digas adios
Quedate aqui conmigo

Don't say goodbye

Adios no es una palabra para nosotros
No te vallas
Quedate aqui conmigo

[Chorus]

Don't say goodbye

Even though We'll be apart
We'll see the same stars
Just close your eyes
And I'll be where you are
Don't say goodbye
Cuz if you say that word my heart won't survive

[Chorus]

Don't say goodbye

Even though We'll be apart
We'll see the same stars
Just close your eyes
And I'll be where you are
Don't say goodbye
Cause if you say that word my heart won't survive

Don't say goodbye (5 times)

08/01/05
Woke up at 10am.Changed quickly go to work.
Reached there so early can even go to tangs for a while.
Then went to work at Scott Shopping Centre.
Then work till 2pm++ then go for lunch.
After lunch Xiao Ying went home.
I waited a while longer to get more $$$$
Then went to Tangs and saw Fenson and Julian
Went to helped them do the decoration for NY.
Then bought Sugar Cane for them n myself
Then went off go find my fren at Taka find Grace.
Bt she nt there then heck abt her.
Adam and i went to Tangs and saw Joyce and Jacilyn.
Tok 2 them while Adam went to buy small cups for beer.
Double shot kind.
Then went off to Plaza Sing,Adam went to pass $$$ to his Fren.
Then went home,for me it still early to go home sia.
Then went to PS basement 1 a bikini shop which my fren works there.
Chatted with her for a while then went to HMV to find Joyce.
We shopped around for something......
Then went to listen to music.................
Joyce and i wanted to find Jacilyn bt Joyce cant make it.
Than at the same time thinking should buy CD @HMV
Then i went to Chinatown to buy the CD as it was only $16
Then went back to home sleep home

2day(5/01/04) supose to go to Sec sch ans see my ex stead and my frens in there bt i didn't.
Woke up at 8.30am and wan to go to sch by 9.30am bt
I went back 2 sleep thinking to wake up at 9am and
Woke up at 11am then forget abt going to sch.
Then at the same time it was my Best fren's birthday.
Meet my frens at Cine level 8 playing pool together.
Andy,Joseph(birthday boi),Raymond playing pool.
Then went to Joseph hus to celebrate.....
Went to eat dinner at his hus n the dinner became to barberque dinner kind....
Then we ate the cake from Annie Choice Cheesecake
Sang birthday song to him then
Went 2 play pool at Bt Timah Shopping Centre....
Then Raymond and i went home together in a taxi.......
Then i walked home from his hus.....

My Only Wish This Year

Last night I took a walk in the snow.
Couples holding hands, places to go
Seems like everyone but me is in love.

Santa can you hear me
I signed my letter that I sealed with a kiss
I sent it off
It just said this
I know exactly what I want this year.
Santa can you hear me.
I want my baby (baby, yeah)
I want someone to love me someone to hold me.
Maybe (maybe, maybe maybe.) he'll be all my own in a big red bow

Santa can you hear me?
I have been so good this year and all I want is one thing
Tell me my true love is near
He's all I want, just for me underneath my christmas tree
I'll be waiting here.
Santa thats my only wish this year.
oohhh ohh yeah
Christmas Eve I just can't sleep
Would I be wrong for taking a peek?
Cause I heard that your coming to town

Santa can you hear me? (yea yeah)
Really hope that your on your way
With something special for me in your sleigh
Ohh please make my wish come true
Santa can you hear me
I want my baby (baby)
I want someone to love me someone to hold me
Maybe (maybe maybe) we'll be all the love under the mistletoe

Santa can you hear me
I have been so good this year
And all I want is one thing
Tell me my true love is near
He's all I want just for me
Underneath my christmas tree
I'll be waiting here santa thats my only wish this year
I hope my letter reaches you in time
Bring me love can call all mine
(yeah yeah) cause I have been so good this year.

Can't be alone under the mistletoe
He's all want and a big red bow
Santa can you hear me (hear me?)
I have been so good this year
And all i want is one thing
Tell me my true love is near
He's all I want. just for me
Underneath my christmas tree
I'll be waiting here (ohh yeah) santa thats my only wish this year
Oh santa can u hear me? oh santa
Well hes all I want just for me underneath my Christmas tree
Oh I'll be waiting here
Santa thats my only wish this year.