It had been 7days since the day u wanted to break..

Every single day been telling myself not to be sad.
Every single day frens telling me not to feel sad.
Every single day been feeling moody.
Every single day try to feel happy.
Every single day entertainin myself.
Every single day only sing 1 song.
And that song is the song i sang to you.

Wou Ke Yi by Cai Ming You

Thats the song i been singing to myself
For freaking 8days..
That my family and my friends wana kill me for it.

For 8days want to forget you.
But the love and how i treasure you is too much
That i cant simply forget you.

The way you kiss
The way you hug
The way you hold my hand
The way you smile
The way you talk
The way you do anything

I cant forget a single sec of it..

I still can remember the day we got together.
The looks
The smile
The hug
The kiss

The kiss is enjoyable and nice that cant be forgotten
The smile which makes my heart melt
The hug of warmness you gave me
The look of you the perfect one of my life

I haven never seen such a perfect one.
Till you viewed my profile in friendster.
And i viewed back,you put as private
So i added you,you accept my request.

Message you for your number.
And one day you sms me,sayin you r frm frenster.
After the few days,smsin you
Till the day on my birthday.
Was wit sarah,and you wit your fren
I at Padang,You at Marina Square.
The place so far yet my love for you is close.

I go drinkin,you still with frens go pub SOS.
After drinkin,Sarah went home only me.
So go meet you,as i really love you.

The moment i reached to SOS,i listened to u 2 sit.
Then your frens say nv entertain me.
I was super quiet,dun noe what to do.
The moment you sit down beside me..
Then the song Wo Ke Yi played..
Amy sang the song on the mic..
While i sang the chorus to you while crossin yr arm.

You ask me if i noe hw 2 play 5,10,15.
I so sucks in playin,bt i noe you noe hw 2 play on dat day
And after few rounds of playing.
You lost to me 5times,i lost to you 1time only.
See you drink,i know you already drunk.
I wanted to drink for you de.
But is national day should be happy mood.
So let you continue to drink.

Told you my fren make drink even more thicker.
So you wanted to go there.
Listened to you..I should not bring you there.
Its my mistake..Its my Fuckin mistake..

:'(

Should not intro you Seb,if i know you wud do tis 2 me.
After the huggin
After the kissin
After the dancin
After the holdin of yr hands

Went to your home area.
The moment we sit,you str8 away lie on my shoulder.
Asked you if my shoulder nice to lie or not.
You replied yes..

Let you continue to lie..
While disturbin you.
And u lie on my leg..
Seein you drunk and sleepy.
Feeling like kissing you again all the way till board day light
But i had to be camp the mornin.
The time is 4am and had to be in camp by 8am
After 15mins,i and you had the last kiss at blk 16
Before i go home in the taxi.

And before i know it the next day is 10aug
We still together,but till it reached to 11aug
11Aug 10.55pm,your sms came..
My duty is at 11pm till 5am
The moment i c the sms my mood and world crashed.
It had crashed by tat sentence alone.
Nothing can mend it back...Unless you come back.

Tears comin down,face looks like nv cry at all..
Silently and slowly,as if the time past slowly...
People see me wud not think i crying..
The way i cry is special...
Silent tear drop from my eyes till my chin..
Keep on dropin and dropin..
Cried from 11pm till around 4am.
My Pc came,i stopped cryin...
He came to my checkpoint to entertain me..
Till 5am..1hr...After tat next shift came..
He go somewhere else..
While i walk back to keep my arms.
Frm my checkpoint to my hQ takes abt 15 to 20mins.
But i took 1hr.
Kept on cryin and draggin my feet sloopy..
What had i done to get this..
I know you wan yr happiness,wat abt mine?
Where's my happiness...
My happiness is havin u as my stead.
But my happiness lasts for 2days only..
And sadness for 7days
Happiness for you 9days..
2days from me 7days from him

Nobody wud want me.
I sucks
I stupid
I idiot
I lousy
I useless
I dumb
I blur
I am everything thats is bad..

I am not good in anything..
Nothing at all!!!

Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Who can help me?
Only me myself but i cant help myself..
Only you can help me..
I want you back..
I want you...........

I miss drinkin vodka lime with you.
I miss hugin you
I miss kissin you
I miss holdin hand wit you

I missed everything i do with you..

I missed you
I love you

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YOU ARE THE ONE!!!!
AFTER 5YRS YOU CAME TO ME...
ARGH....................................................
I DUN WAN 2 WAIT ANOTHER 5YRS
FORGETIN SOMEONE WHOM I LOVE
I DUN WAN YOU 2 B THE NEXT 1
I HAD 2 USE 5YRS TO FORGET...........

On My Birthday 7 Aug.

Was wit sarah at her home area.
After celebratin my birthday wit her.
Called Kenny to meet up.

Took few pics together jus he n me.
I loved him lots....
Then he had to go back soon cus of sch 2molo.

Sms him on the way back home.
Told him that i liked him
He gives me the kind of feeling he likes me too..











































8aug 07

Kenny and me met up.
Callin my tortoise n piggy for being slow
Nvm...let him call what he wants..
The person i like called me wat nvm..
Muahaha...

Watched Rush hour3
After that jalan around town with him..
Loved him lots..
During the whole movie was disturbin him..
As well as lookin at him..
Looks like i was watching him not watchin movie.
Muahaha...

Ard evenin time i gtg off to somewhere else..
Gt abit of huggin to him here n there lol..
Feelin happy..
Met my other frens @ Bedok
2 celebrate my belated birthday
Celebratin while smsin him all the time haha lol..

Really love you lots lots lots...
Wanted to meet him after that
But in the end did not meet up.

9Aug National Day

Was out with Andy.
Played Arcade with him
Sarah came along..
Wanted to watch fireworks @explanade de..
In the end,watch fireworks though tv
@ Lau Pa Sat..Hungry la..haha..

After that waited for kenny to meet @ a pub.
Andy had 2 go meet someone so he go off first.
As for sarah and me..We walked to the 7-11
Near her home and bought beer to drink...
Vodka Green Apple & Long Island Tea..
Went to her home downstair to wait for him..

Finally he was at a pub called SOS.
Sarah cant make it cus she KO..haha lol..
As for me still awake even though drank her drink 2..
Like 3/4 of it haha...tryin to get myself drunk.

Go meet Kenny and his other friends...
Go there le..str8 away sit down
Kenny was playin cards wit his frens..

His frens are very so called cud b frens or gd frens kinda of.
His frens asked wah fren come nv go entertain him..
Lol...keke..
So he sat beside me and play 5 and 10..
He lost to me alot of times haha..

Crossed over his arm all the time
And sang Wo Ke Yi by Cai Ming You
So happy lol...

Told him tat my fren make drinks @ Tentric
Can get ppl high..
Haha..In the end,he wan to go Tentric..
I asked him,jus u and me har..
He say yup..
WOOOOOOOOOO
Jus he and me..LOL..

Reached there let him drink Vodka Lime.
Since he nv try it b4..
Asked him hws the taste..
Even though its sour but lime ma..
Lol..can dun make a person drunk de..

Then Tentric was playing all kinds of dancin songs i liked..
I kept on dancing haha..I the only 1 dance haha lol..
All see me dance...dots..

Asked him to kiss me or nt i kiss him..
Since he dun wan i go kiss him lol..
After awhile of saying cold stuff..
He accept me as his bf..
I was very very happy!!!!!!!
Hug and kiss him alot of time..
Told sarah tat he n me together..
She says treasure him and sms him to treasure me
After that took pic also..
Looks like he drunk le..






























Handsome while drunk huh?
Lol..His frens came along..
Drank the leftover vodka lime and said its nice..
Lol..My fav drink ma..

Dancin like siao saw my other aj frens come..
All of them happy to noe i gt bf le haha..
All di siao me and him kns..
Nvm nvm...

After the whole thing ended,went to eat.
Before sendin him home..
Hug and kiss and hold hands lol..
Hmm...

@his home downstair slack till ard 4am+..
Disturbin him all the time..lol..

Ard almost to 4.15am then go back home.
Reached home ard 4.30am.
Bath finish and all ard 5am.
Called him and chat awhile more til 5.30am
Sms him good night before goin to sleep.

Got to wake up @ 7am
Book in camp by 8am.
Hmmm..
So happy that he and me together..
Durin my duty,called and sms him..
Doin my duty 12hrs str8
From 12noon till 12mid
Then 6am till 7am
12pm till 1pm then rest night time..

Night time duty from 11pm till 5am.
Then i feel sad le..Give me tis bomb
Want to be frens instead of being together..
I was sad..Totally sad..
From 11pm till 5am feeling sad..
Sms him and called him..
He said he's drunk tat time..
Now he wants to be jus frens..

His hp went low batt ard 4am+
Nvm...Still feeling sad n moody..
Sun whole day rest do nth but on my bed emoing..
Called him and sms him tryin not to break up
But he still want to break up..
Told sarah wat happened..
She tried not to get involved..bt called him to ask y
And other stuff lor..
Sad la sad la..Whole sunday was emoing day....

Used the net in the room,see my friendster and all..
As well as seein his profile..
Totally missed and love him alot..Cant bear 2 lose him.
Bt already lost le..Wat 2 do...
Did not sleep the whole day from like yest 5am till nw..
And the time was monday 5am now..
So the whole of sun did not sleep..

Mon got last duty from 7am till 12noon then book out.
During the whole time,i was moody and emoing
Book out le faster chong go home..
Used net and c his profile alot of time..
Crying my heart out...
Went to sleep ard 5pm,woke up @7pm
Rushed to Vivo to meet my army bunk mates
Watched Flash Point the movie..Tryin not to think abt it..
Even my bunkmates noes abt it..
Asked me dun be sad and stuff..
Showed him the picture..
Saying he is cute..I even more sad..
They even tried to get me turn str8
As there is a gal in our grp who is single..
Jus noe her today..She n me like vr pei
Couple stuff la..Playing here and there..
Nvm..

After that we went to drink..
Called my didi as confirm he go drink de..
And true enough he jus opp of me nia..
Lol..So heng..Got telepathy la..
Fuck...ok back to the story..

While drinking,got emotional that i sms him..
Then found he gt a bf le..and his new bf was my fren..
Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Seb kiwi valant ANG!!!!!!
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CANT TAKE IT LE,DRINK MORE AND MORE N MORE..
MORE CHIVAS LESS GREEN TEA
MORE CHIVAS LESS COKE
TRYIN TO GET DRUNK..
BUT I CANT GET DRUNK AT ALL...
STILL SOBER..
CRYING BADLY LIKE NEVER BEFORE
TIS IS THE 2ND TIME IN MY LIFE
I CRIED SO BADLY BECAUSE OF SOMEONE!!!

SO I CALLED HIM..
EXPLAIN THINGS AND STUFF..
ALL MY FRENS SAID JUS HANG UP THE PHONE LA..
FIND NEW GUY..
I WAS LIKE NO!!!!!
I LOVE TIS GUY ALOT...

One of my bunkmate called Woo..
Woo said tis,i treat you as my brother
I cant bear to see you cry over someone
I cant bear to see you like tis state

I was feeling like dyin..
The pub beside me someone kena heck..
Bloodied clothes and police came..

How i wish i was the 1 to get heck to death.
How i wish it wud come true..

I noe u wan to be good friends with me now..
He said sorry to me and stuff..

Love cant be force..
Ya love cant be force
But must you lied to me
At least tell me the truth tat u like someone else..
No need to waste my time..
You know..

I know tat u dun wan 2 hurt my feeling..
But at least,at least the truth is better then endin..
You noe wat i mean..
Do you know..
Do u noe hw hard it was to let it go..

You know i also like bobo rite..
I asked u tat time tat dun noe who to choose
Either u or Bobo..
Tat time u can say u someone else in mind..
But y u nv tell me!!!
Y!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tat night i also nv go sleep,was awake who to choose..
And tat night was on 8th Aug..
The day before i asked u to be together with me..
At least on National day i dun need
2 go find u and get tis kind of SHIT!!

Now i dun noe wat to do,right now still thinkin of u..

Tat day Jiayi cud tell me tat u hv someone in mind..
Noe tat u both dun wan 2 hurt me..
But well..cus u nv tell me i got hurt jus like tat..

I nv cried so much before!!!!
NV!!!

My 2nd true love for someone jus gone jus like tat..
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After the police gone, we went to Geyland hotel..
Stay overnight there..Sms kenny and called kenny..
All my fren ask me go to a room and tok to him lor..
CAN EVEN REMEMBER YOUR NUMBER
ON THE DAY WE MET AT YR HOME AREA..
I REMEMBERED YOUR HP NUMBER LE..
My frens so good..Not like dun noe who..
Damn heck over le..

Was sad totally..
After tokin 2 jia yi i even more emotional,tryin to calm down.
Before hanging up..Told jia yi tat
On fri and sat i b @ PLAY come find me if u want to..
I dun noe if she says to you or not..

My fren called Liao..
Good that played all the emotional songs which cud make me
More emo to forget you tat we once together..

Cried and Cried till i KO!!!!
Woke up next mornin 7am+
Sms to shan wat i did yest..

Shan said tat kenny was locked out of the house..
I replied her that serve him right

At the same time was feeling sad..
If i wit u can bring u to my home..
Well..its over..

YA IT'S OVER!!!

YA WE CAN BE GOOD FRIEND AS BEFORE...
U CAN ASK ME OUT WHEN YOU FREE...
I DUN NOE WHEN U FREE
SO U JUS CALL ME K..
I BE THERE FOR YOU ALWAYS..
I WILL FORGET EVERYTHING
I TREAT IT THAT I NV HAD A RS WIT U..
ALL TAT LOVIN,SMS,KISSIN,HUGGIN
AND LASTLY YOUR LOVE BITE
TILL NOW ITS NOT GONE YET..
BT NW ITS GONE LE..

NOW LISTENIN TO ALL EMO SONGS..
YOU NO NEED TO B SCARED OF ME K..
WATS THERE 2 SCARED OF ME...
LISTEN TO EMO SONGS ONLY..
JUS CUS I LISTEN TO EMO SONGS
U DUN DARE 2 MEET ME?

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I WANA DIE NOW...
I LIVE SO HIGH 29TH FLOOR..
I CAN JUS FUCKIN JUMP DOWN!!!

must cool myself down..cool down cool down..
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Kenny hope u enjoy with him k
I shall let u b wit him ba...
Since u really want it...
Well...
Have good time with him...
Need a listenin ear can call me?

30 July 07
Book out from camp at2pm.
Faster rush home to use com.
Then called XYing wat she doin.
XYing givin tuition,dun believe...
Confirm fail de haha lol..

Well after tat she asked y i called..
Cus everytime called always is go out de.
But i nv asked her out..

Then she called me after hangin up the phone
Askin wat i doin,wana go bedok or not.

I say ok lor,go watch movie..
Watched the simpson movie..Super funny..
Watched wit suherman n XYing.
After the movie went mac to slack till 11pm..
Then go home..Along the way 4gt to return Xying ezlink
Haha collect point from mac bt nv return nvm 2molo return
Well i online from 12mid till 6am haha..

Then chatted with other frens on msn till 6am.

The next day 31july 07
Went to NYP to find her,return her ez link..
Then used her laptop to watch yaoyi haha lol..
Went downstair to watch alone haha lol..
Watched 3/4 then gt tis guy suddenly saw it ba.
Then go his class and tell everyone gt free yaoyi video 2 watch.
NB all laughing sayin gay here n there..
Lol..i was laughin while watchin,noin they wan 2 c
Quicky switch to msn lol..
All shout so loud wah MSN leh...keke hehe haha..
Siao ppl are always siao ppl...tsk tsk tsk..

Played Crazy Taxi on the laptop...
Always wud win XYing no matter wat lol..
After tat went to kovan to meet Kenneth,jojo and Yi Jian
While XYing wit her classmates stayed in sch..
I reached Kovan,Kenneth say wana take taxi meet at suntec.
I was like dotssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
Waste my ez link nia..ez link nt cheap leh..no more 45cents.
Now is adult fare..

Reached Suntec,go nokia care centre,tootie wana service phone.
After tat went to arcarde..B4 goin play lan game..

Played dota till pek chek,always die and lose..
Tis is the 2nd time i played..Nw so called noe hw 2 play le la.
Bt still cant win...Always mati..
Nvm..Nvm..It jus a game anyway..

Played finish went home,now online..
Hmm nth to say leh..Shall stop here..
Oh ya..2molo go back camp sian 1.2...
But can wear civilian clothes can le..for book in..
Well shall stop liao..